I grieve for losses. I grieve for gains.
Playground school bell rings again,
Rain clouds come to play again,
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to,
Hello...

If I smile and don't believe,
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream,
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken,
Hello, I'm the lie, living for you so you can hide,
I don´t cry...

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping,
Hello, I'm still here,
All that's left of yesterday...







This song is about losing whats closest. The unspeakable pain and suffering called grief. The act of destin. The act of fate.

I feel no emotion, I am unharmed by pain. Grief and Emptiness have consumed me. I cannot find the Light. I am lost........




Where once was light
Now darkness falls
Where once was love
Love is no more
Don't say goodbye
Don't say I didn't try

These tears we cry
Are falling rain
For all the lies you told us
The hurt, the blame!
And we will weep to be so alone
We are lost
We can never go home

So in the end
I'll be what I will be
No loyal friend
Was ever there for me

Now we say goodbye
We say you didn't try

These tears you cry
Have come too late
Take back the lies
The hurt, the blame!

And you will weep
When you face the end alone
You are lost
You can never go home
You are lost
You can never go home





I am lost.............I can never go home.


I cannot escape the dark.........there is no hope.










There is no hope.

The passing storm, shall never pass.

Darkness has fallen, never to lift again.

There is no light.

There is no hope.





























I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along









Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends


I see a red door and I want it painted black
no colors anymore, I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I see a line of cars and they are painted black
with flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
like a new born baby it just happens every day

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it's heading into black
maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
it's not easy facing up when your whole world is black

I wanna see it painted painted, painted black, oh baby
I wanna see it painted painted, painted black, oh baby

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
my love will laugh with me before the morning comes

I wanna see it painted, painted black, oh
black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted from the sky
painted, painted, painted black oh baby
painted painted, painted black.


Stayed awake all night toss and turnin now my bloodshot eyes are burnin what to know why this aint workin fight after fight after fight. And now its killing me.
You were to busy to believe in all these run away dreams I was dreamin. Time to pack up and go I'm leavin fight after fight after fight.
And now i'm gonna be on my own living in a world alone. Gets better everyday cause I don't have to say I'm sorry I'm coming home. I'm gonna make it on my own I'll always take the harder road. Gets better everyday cause I don't have to say I'm sorry I'm coming home.

You will always be the lonely one, you will always try to swallow the sun. Just remember you can never make it rain on everyone.
On my own and livin in a world alone gets better everyday cause I don't have to say. I'm never coming back on my own and living in a world alone gets better every day cause I don't have to say I'm sorry I'm coming home. I'm gonna make it on my own and livin in a world alone. Gets better everyday cause I don't have to say I'm sorry I'm comin home.

I'm sorry, I won't be comin home I'll make it on my own I'm sorry I won't be coming home, I'll make it on my own. I'm sorry I won't be coming home I'll make on my own I'm sorry I won't be coming home. I'm sorry I won't be coming home I'll make it on my own.



This is the evenstar. It is the necklace that Nightcloud/Strider wears.